with mother's day being tomorrow, i thought this would be a good opportunity to write a little something to each one of the people that call me MOM. and a little something for the wonderful woman who gave me life...
ashlen~WOW! that pretty much sums up the impact you have had on my life...i realize i've only been in your life since you were the ripe old age of 12 but it feels like so much longer. i am so very, very, unbelievably proud of the woman you have become. i have thought this since i very first met you: you are one of the strongest people i know. i've always been envious of your strength and courage. i can not wait to see what the future holds for you. you will do great things. you have done great things. and you are beautiful both inside and out. i couldn't love you anymore if i had shot you out of my vagina. oops. TMI?? i love you and miss you more and more every day.
blake~looking back, i really feel like we raised each other. i have learned just as much-probably more-from you than i have taught you. you are an incredible young man..but will always be my baby boy. i admire your big heart and your sensitive nature. you can light up a room with that big smile of yours. i've been trying to mentally prepare myself for this time next year when you get ready to leave and start the next chapter of your life. it's not working. i will miss you terribly. for so long, it was just me and you. and i will never forget those times. you kept me going and everything i've ever done, has been for you. i love you more than words.
mackenzie~i don't even know where to start. from birth, you have amazed me. you are smart, funny, and have managed to become a teenager wrapped in a little bitty package. your spirit is like no other. you can make me laugh, cry and scream all at the same time! that's some talent! i can't wait to see what great things you are going to do. i do know that whatever it is, you will give it 110%. and will always keep all of us on our toes while doing it!! i love you more than the sky, mackie!
layton~you stole my heart. i will never forget the feeling of emptiness i had when i had to leave you at the hospital. or the gut-wrenching day they took you back to have heart surgery. i have never felt so helpless in my life. fast forward 2 1/2 years later and you are such a big boy...so sweet. when you look at me and say, "hi, mama." i truly melt. your daddy says that you have my number and i think he's right. i am putty in your hands. that toothy grin gets me everytime. you are my little miracle. i love you more than anything in this world!
and last but surely not least....
to my mother~i could not have asked for a better role model. you have always been there and supported me no matter what. the sacrifices you have made have not gone unnoticed and will never be forgotten. your strength and tenacity are unbelievable. i am so proud to call you mom and thank you for always being there to talk, listen or agree with me...even if i'm wrong! i love you.
happy mother's day to all the mom's out there! enjoy your day!! i know i will!!